suddenly... an angel turns to be an asshole

td pagi hujan, trus berenti, ach! jd gk kronis. cronology of fuckin true story.

day#1
soaked ba the love. fucking fake one. i put him on my desktop. change my cellphone profile. change ma screen saver. change ma cellphone welcome note. change his name in my phonebook. everything that refer to him. i hug him in my dream. longing for your touch. (anjas, gak lah, kesannya gw HBL berat, cm gw seneng aja kata2nya) playing around and around "desire" PS.

yesterday i found myself alone, ....

i can't say anything, or bring you something
i hope you can fyeel this ...

ma desire

day#2
he ... dissapears. he never call me. didn't reply ma sms. that time i want to swing my cellphone to the wall that it will be smacked up. but i didn't cry. suffering by loving you.

day#3
semuanya gk ada yg menarik. coldplay, the upstairs, weezer, radiohead, emo2an, anjas gk napsu dengernya. gk ada foto menarik bwt diedit. gak tau mau nulis apa selain ef yu si key. semua buku jd ky sampah. gw gk galau. gw KESEL !!!!!! gw musti brg banyak org to stay concious. biar gw tetep waras. pgn di potluck terus brg temen2 gw dan gk keluar lg. sembunyi di gua itu. (siapa itu gw lupa philosoper nya, plato? aristoteles? freud? )

day#4
hari ini ohu, hedon brg teman2. ah, menyenangkan. ada yg suka manggil gw sayang. alaaaaaaah..... sheeesh, hare gene (kl kt upi) gw udah gak percaya apapun di dunia ini, laki-lakinya, ucapannya, janjinya, impiannya, harapannya, dan hal2 yg abstraks. (-nya dalam hal ini merujuk ke dunia, bukan laki-laki)

balik lg; babbi tu orang!!!!! carryn.... dia sucks! bastard! i really want to slap, punch, and smack his face out. sosok sempurna (yg sebenernya gak!!) ternyata sama bangsatnya. gila ya, it could be really sweet, or it totally FUCKED. dr dulu gw selalu ngomongin org yg sama.

bahkan dulu gw gk suka gt ma loo. beneran biasa aja. gw suka sama temennya. then you make me love you. bikin gw suka bgt ma lo. lw tu jahat bgt ya?

dadagh. you out of my life. byee. i'm sorry to have you part of my life. do not play with woman's heart. the karma is there. (tp gw rasa gw sendiri ini yg lg kena karma, krn biasanya mungkin yg asshole itu gw. tp gw gk maksud sumpah : bagi yg ngerasa gw asshole)







. . now i blacken my desktop, just like ma soul.