i lose my melancholism

hi, how are you? i lose my melancholism lately.... can't you see, that is a par'ey at my office. Mono (Japan) is playing from Youtube (yet, i dont have theirs). i think i know how this post-rock music works.

how funny to see a line from someone's blog posting. it's too...... short to preview their life. maybe just like mine. once i was just graduated, now i'd just received my third salary (dont talk about job, it hurts the ego).

i still have 14 people add my facebook as friends. last, i have 21 people add my myspace as friends. why Friendster promote to have much friends in life, so dont get too complex. details updates are for my close friends only. fuck idols. alrity, i would like to introduce plurk, and i never promote FB at all :)

i'm so happy with this life. i'm too real. now i come here again, just to record my lastweekend, two days, Gembi play husband and i play.... happyly. at Thursday, my office pals and i went to Bellagio karaoke for my friend Mita's birthday. at 9 PM, gembi pick me up and go to Brewww where last gig occured. i miss nights like that. Stellarium, Sarin, and Sharesprings. before 11, Gembi and i have yawned several time. healthy life, can't have (Warhol) social disease. go home before even see JellyBelly. the gig was great, the gig was awesome.

at Friday, now a thing that Tika invited Gembi personally to attend her birthday par'ey at Panglima Polim III (forget number). we went there, and at 9, we come back again at my office, where is the pool par'ey. pool party means poool party (as you can see above). we went home after 11, because the car couldn't get out.

the bad news is, Stellarium only cover other band's songs. and Sharesprings playing bad (as my friend suggested). hmmm.... still love the smoke, and the light, and the visual (no other than Killafternoon's team, good job, mate)

well, i really really dont want to end up like that blog, you know. norakkxx girl with stupid-cow-bastard groupist. how come people come up with cute things when 'nyampah', while i could only daydreaming and stare to my Plurk home. no more updates. specially for tonight (this morning)

i slept. over Gembi's phone. hava nice rest, he said. someone's looking for closure. are these all melancholic enough? see you again, my fella fella..

silent sobbings

GUA GAK AKAN MELUPAKAN DIA SELAMANYA !!!!

bodo amat, kaya' lo sempet aja mikirin dia HAHAHA
udah gw bilang gw mah bahagia DIY *wink*
kalau dia gak bisa boongin gw
gw bisa boongin diri gw sendiri
lagian emang gak ada boong2an kok
(apaan sih self talking :p)
semuanya hanya misunderstanding dengan energi emosi yang membunuh
mana ada artikel cewek di majalah cowok ihihi

tenang teman-teman, saya baik-baik saja :D



Aku jatuh cinta, 'tuk sekian kali
Baru kali ini kurasakan
Cinta sesungguhnya
Tak seperti dulu
Kali ini ada pengorbanan

Cinta bukan sekedar kata-kata indah
Cinta bukan sekedar buaian belaian peraduan

Samudera cinta dari pulung hati
Tak terukur dalamnya
Hingga saat perpisahan tiba
Mengundang air mata
Atau hanya secuil penyesalan

Cinta adalah ruang dan waktu
Datang dan menghilang
Semua karunia Sang Pencipta



every morning i open my eyes
my heart's sank
i bite my lip
bitter
sorrow
pain
scared

jangan lengah
jangan percaya
jangan percaya apa hayoo......?
hehehehe

pikiran negatif itu terkadang masih datang setiap pagi
terkadang terisak
terkadang apatis lagi
hanya kali ini tidak akan ada lagi dirinya
karena dia bilang saya menghancurkannya
di dunia ini saya paling tidak mau menghancurkannya
as simple as that
biarlah saya saja yang berdarah-darah
dari antah berantah kali hehe

ket:
tulisan ini ditulis di awal hari
tulisan ini ditulis di akhir hari
abis ditelpon gembi, mihihihihi syenang
ditutup dengan video klip hitam putih bagus Littlest Things

bahkan marie antoinette pun galau

udah lama gak galau. been there.

i learned how it felt to lose you since we first met

fire flies and empty ocean

kretek ringan. kratingdaeng. tari topeng Cirebon yang mistis. God's an Astronout. Discollapse in regrett *menggigit bibir. free pass for wekend gig?? sms yg lgsg dihapus. sms lama tetap disimpan. sms yang u n s e n t. sepertinya dia terlalu jauh dari daratan. *Starlight intro

I’m ok with you - it’s all right 2

apalah artinya Goodnight Electric tanpa cinta . . . . .
good.no.more.rane, and totally not o.K (MCR kalee)

i can't believe my long awaited May 3rd end up in disaster

wakakakkakk,, gak diiiing. . . . .

cinta & luka aiihh

if only i could drink that cold beer
and if only i could drink it with you
Jakarta melelahkan...
just, give me those milds!

penunggu*

*) gk sengaja pas warnet muter Peterpan - Menunggumu



pekerjaan gw adalah menunggu
menunggu waktu
menunggu kesal ini hilang
menunggu penat ini pergi
menunggu sedih ini sirna
menunggu kesempatan datang
kesempatan yang bisa menambah langkah kaki
semakin mendekat ke Thamrin
menunggu hujan reda (di Salemba)
menunggu jodoh datang
menunggu prince charming
menunggu...
sudah menunggu 5 tahun

hujan deras di Salemba*

udah malu(2-in) trus pulang :))










*gubahan Kaktus - The Sastro
**2 kalimat dengan kode cukup tinggi yah, yah yah yah... layaknya album gw mw say thanks to... alah kebanyakan wahahahahahahahahahahaha
kutunggu YM kalian sahajahaha *wink

2 a.m

it is now... kureguk kratingdaeng keempat dalam seminggu ini... ada tugas yang terlambat... takut nunggu angkot dini hari... lihat traffic light, dibalut blur kantuk, masih menyala... kota ini belum tidur.... the adams... mati lampu... karon n roll... different class stoneroses like vokilsnya meliuk2 aneh dan anak2 ingusan berdansa goblog... MC cikini: "beli bir noh disonoh tegabelasrebu doank!"... Mr.Manager: "MAHAL! lemabelasrebu duak"... trimakasiiih :>...the lantai atas... pangung kuning habis hujan... dian bening rambutnya dikat... supermarket minus GE... love... love will tears us apart, always... the sastro... hujan deras di jakarta... cinta jakarta... the bikinis yg kurang gahar rock nggak disko nggak... pulang pas angkatan udara namanya lbh cocok buat rapper... semuanya berdansa resah... badan gak kontrol baju ketat semua... RNRM... semuanya mematung... padahal adrenalin masih berdansa... homogenic dengan vokalis yg musti diganti... ZATP dan stasiun tv lokal... pengap... the milo... bosen trus pulang... bosen trus pulang... bosen trus pulang... bosen trus pulang... bosen trus pulang... bosen trus pulang... bosen trus pulang... muak gue najiss anjis anjyieeennkk...

delete messages > inbox

inbox gw sekarang bersih

It's Quite Fun !!

Bersua lagi dengan orang itu! Potongan rambutnya lucu, kaos junkies hitam Motorhead ! aduh lgsg kebayang Dave Grohl, Ya ampun…. Pengen gw kucek-kucek rambutnya dan bilang, “GANTENG BGT SIH LOOOOOOO…………!!!!!"

Ayo kita DiskoM, my fren… Disko Massa, siaaaap….. haha *wink*

Hati yang terus melompat, berkali-kali singgah, siapa yg ma(mp)u menahannya?

Walau setiap singgah pasti keceblos…

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Aduuuuuuuuuuhhhh…………. Kangeeeeeeeeeeeennnnnn…………….
Kemaren katanya gk peduli ?
Iya, tapi lagi kangen niiiiiihhhh……….
He dumped you, anyway, udahlah….
Oh iya, ya udah deh….

[self talking at 20.29 PM]

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nggak kok, gw gk galau...

GW UDAH GK PEDULI MA LOOOOO..... !!!!!!!

haha, puass...

udah ah ;)

hahaha

super implisit

sudahlah... don't take me seriously

cowok islam bajingan

hahahahaha...... gw udah mw ngpost ini sejak lama, tp agak males, kmrn curhat ma lukman keparat itu

SINCE WHEN I BECAME A FATALIST ???!!!!!!!

gw br nyadar, hey i'ma fukin' fatalist!!!

why? when? mungkin sejak dunia jd kejam

we're fukin alone in this fukin cruel world, goddamnit

trus lukman nyuruh gw.... nyuruh gw.... ngaji

bajingan kan? hohoho

nulis apa lagi yah?

biasanya kalo gk ada kerjaan gini, ntr kebablasan jd curhat
sial
love life?
i don't know
ntr kebawa desperate lg, bajingan
emang kita musti sayang dulu ma org ya, baru kita disayang?
tp kan dia bukan cowok gw gt, knp musti devoted
gw gk bs tuh ky pecun gt, hoho *pecun lagiiiii....*
maaf ya

shout out

terima kasih saya haturkan kepada CARRYN yg masih menghampiri saya mengajak makan siang dan JOJON, the good guy, uhahahaha xp , yg berpesan sebelum saya meninggalkan lfm, "jangan bunuh diri dulu, ya...." nggak kok *grinning*

bosan

sedang sedih mendengar the upstairs. pengen sebel tp sebenernya masih suka. sedang sengketa dengan beni. udah ah.

krejap-krejap merah-ungu-hijau

my green lady bug darling
shining in the dance floor
begitu girang menghisap energi
meletup-letup di tengah pendar lampu disko
batman, raja
anjing, motherfucker
oom leo, berdiri merintang
aku mencintaimu
kemana gadis ber-singlet putih itu pergi?
lelah telah berajojing di lantai dansa
miss black retro chick
lucunya dirimu..
juga yang menegnakan celana pendek dan baju bo-ho
mengisi tengah ruangan padat
para lelaki pun tak berdaya melihat kalian

malam semakin gelap
udara berkabut asap rokok
aku tercekik tak bisa bernapas

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tai.